Sophie is a 3rd year theology student at Heythrop College, London
For me, being a woman of God doesn’t relate
to being fashionable, how much you earn, or how popular you are etc, it’s all
to do with your heart, faith and actions in life. Being full of love and
compassion for others, being open-minded and non-judgemental, and keeping faith
in God when times get tough, are all qualities I admire in a woman of God.
I have grown up in the Catholic faith, and
have been going to Christian conferences ever since I was six years old. I am now
in my third and final year at university, and it hasn’t always been easy. I’ve found it quite hard, but only recently something
changed, allowing me to learn so much more about trusting in God and dealing with
what the world throws at me.
In August 2013 I went to a Catholic
Conference called New Dawn, and whereas the previous year I didn’t want to be
there, this year I realised I couldn’t deal with the struggles of life by
myself, and really needed God. During that week, something just clicked.
I’m
not someone who likes going up for prayer ministry as I find it really
daunting, but this year I was prayed with on a couple of different occasions,
without asking for prayer about anything in particular, and WOW! The messages
people gave me affected me so much! They were exactly what I needed to hear,
and it just proved to me that there really was a God out there who cares for me
and has a plan for me – something I really struggled in believing for years.
I know something in me changed that week,
not quite sure what, but I thought I’d share some of the things I’ve realised
and really taken on board in the past few months.
Firstly, being a woman of God does not mean
being perfect, everyone makes mistakes! But I am learning not to beat myself up
about them, but to know the grace of God. He is a God who forgives, and as
someone said to me, the guilt you may feel is God calling you to reconcile with
Him, although the enemy will try and use it to put up barriers between you and
God.
I’ve always found there was a pressure on
me to do well at school, go to uni, do well there, know what I want to do in
life, and go and do it. Well, my grades in sixth form went down, and being in
my last year at uni, I still don’t know what I want to do, but I now know that that’s
okay. God DOES have a plan for me, and even if I don’t know what it is, I will
trust in Him.
Originally I was really against going to
uni in London, but everything kept telling me that it’s where I would end up,
and looking back on it, I can see it’s what God wanted as it has been such a
blessing, location-wise and through the people I’ve met.
I believe one of the struggles women face
today is that of respecting themselves and not letting a man dictate their
worth. Sex is everywhere in the media and is seen as the norm. This greatly
influences young women in our society, especially those who have just turned 18
and are about to leave home to start their life at university. When young students
head to uni, there is the temptation to ‘let loose’ and have fun, and whilst
some don’t see the problem at the time, others end up regretting it in the long
run, producing feelings of shame, emptiness and worthlessness.
Obviously both men and women have a part to
play in this, but a woman deserves to recognize that, if a man makes you feel
this way, they’re not worth it and they do not deserve you. As women of God we
should also remember that our true worth lies in Him, and His unconditional love
for us – for “Jesus Christ knows the
worst about you. Nonetheless, He is the one who loves you most” (A.W.
Tozer)
Lastly, something I’ve found to be very
important is to have other women of God around you, even if it is just one, who
can journey with you, share in your struggles, pray for and with you, and keep
you accountable. This is something that I’ve felt has really helped me in my
journey. Don’t get me wrong, even though I feel as though I’ve learned so much,
I’m only human and still make many a mistake, and have my struggles and doubts.
However, I am learning to deal with it differently, and become the woman God
made me to be.
Thank you Sophie for kicking off the guest bloggers season!
ReplyDeleteYoung adults are often portrayed/portray themselves as being full of certainty and self-assurance, so it's refreshing and good that you have been able to say that isn't the case for you - I'm sure your words will help others face up to their own insecurities and anxiety.
We've just celebrated the Epiphany, and those Magi who followed an elusive star, no doubt through wrong turns, dead ends and times of discouragement - but got there eventually, finding Jesus somewhere they would never have originally expected! So I pray for you in your searching and journeying, that you too, following your own star, may find where Christ is living and calling you to.